Doubt
In the Cell of Uncertainty
"When John heard in prison what the Messiah was doing, he sent word by his disciples and said to him, 'Are you the one who is to come or are we to wait for another?'" (Mt. 11: 2-3)
We do not know why John asked sent his disciples to ask the question of Jesus. Matthew does not tell us. Indeed, Matthew doesn't even seem interested in knowing.
However, that does not stop us from wondering and speculating. As a teacher once told me: "We believe in the maxim 'where the Bible speaks we speak and where the Bible is silent we are silent.' However, we also apparently believe in the maxim 'where the Bible speaks we are silent and where the Bible is silent we speak.'"
I know my own doubts and uncertainties. And, as a pastor, I often hear others express theirs as well. Sometimes life can be so hard that doubting is the best we can do. I read this text with those doubts rolling through the back of my mind.
I do not know whether John doubted or not. I do not know whether uncertainty crept into his dank cell or not. It may have been that John saw his destiny written on the prison wall and sent his disciples as a way to quell their doubts about the identity of Jesus. Perhaps John was engaged in a bit of "succession planning."
Whether it was because of his own doubts or because of the questions of his disciples, John did send them to Jesus with that question: "Are you the one who is to come or should we wait for another?"
My guess is that it is very hard to see the inbreaking reign of God from within the walls of a damp prison or as you are perched precariously atop a three-legged stool and straining to peer through a tiny, barred-up window.
I recognize the dangers of going beyond the text. Anything I say about John's motives in asking that question would be "arguing from silence."
However, I also recognize what happens to us when we are cut off from the world, imprisoned (if only for a time) in the darkness of doubt, shackled in the chains of despair, and fettered by fears. What seemed so clearly the case in the carefree daylight is lost in the shadow of the terrifying moment.
"Are you the one who is to come or should we wait for another?"
John had heard what Jesus was doing. (Note: Matthew says that John heard what the Messiah was doing!) But John heard about it in prison.
Perhaps from his own vantage "what Messiah was doing" was not what John thought the Messiah would or should be doing. Given his wilderness sermons, John may have imagined something more...earth shattering. After all, John had drawn terrifying word pictures of the ax being laid the roots and of days of wrath coming over the horizon.
Jesus did not say "I AM the ONE" to John's disciples. Jesus appealed to the words of the prophets, to the images of Jubilee and to the songs of Israel:
"Tell John what you hear and see: the blind receive their sight, the lame walk, the lepers are cleansed, the deaf hear, the dead are raised and the poor have good news brought to them." (vs. 4-5; NRSV)
Tell John that miracles abound but also tell him who the recipients of those graces are: the blind, the deaf, the dead, and the poor. The overlooked, the outcast, the forgotten are being seen, brought close and remembered.
And all of them...these poor...are hearing good news.
God is at work-perhaps in unexpected ways -but working nonetheless. Look closely and listen...you are locked for a time in your cell of despair but your experience is not the breadth and depth and height of God's working. The kingdom is breaking through and things spoken of by prophets, indeed the words of John are coming to pass...the world is being turned upside down as the kingdom of God breaks through in Jesus.
We don't know what the disciples of John did after that. We don't know whether they returned to John or not. We don't know whether John was satisfied by the reply of Jesus.
However, I cannot help but wonder: Did it cross John's mind what Jesus did not say? Did it strike him that Jesus did not say, "and the prisoners are set free"?
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The Hope of Others
I love the 16th Psalm. I love it for its boldness. I say "boldness" because the Psalmist begins by putting God in a bind. In effect he says, "God I take refuge in you so you have little choice but to keep me safe!"
Once you see that the whole Psalm opens up to you. If God is obligated to keep safe those who take refuge in Him, then life can be lived in confidence and fear can be held at bay.
"God...I don't know what to tell you but I've crawled into your pocket and do not intend to move. What can you do but look after me now?"
The Psalmist goes on to praise "the saints." (vs. 3) My paraphrase of that verse is something like this: "Lord, I look around me and see your saints and they all shine like the sun! I am delighted by them because I see that even in my doubt I can rest in their faith; even as I sink into despair I am lifted up by their hope."
When I was going through a hard time I was comforted by the prayers of friends.
This morning my agent, "Irv", sent me a prayer she picked up from Beliefnet.org. The prayer is by Vienna Cobb Anderson and it about says it all...
Prayer for Friendship
You have blessed us, O God,
with the gift of friendship,
the bonding of persons
in a circle of love.
We thank you for such a blessing:
for friends who love us,
who share our sorrows,
who laugh with us in celebration,
who bear our pain,
who need us as we need them,
who weep as we weep,
who hold us when words fail,
and who give us the freedom
to be ourselves.
Bless our friends with health,
wholeness, life, and love.
Amen.

